I’ve always known I was afraid of failure. However, recently I realized success scares me just as much if not more than failure. Logically it doesn’t make sense. How can I fear both failure and success? Well, one means I wasn’t good enough, and the other one means something has changed or will change. Both prospects…
I want to complain. I know, I know, nobody likes a complainer, but sometimes life is so frustrating I just want to complain. The most annoying part is I know how to fix most of my problems. The problem is making those changes are so hard. I make goals and plans and think of every possible…
I am fat. It sounds harsh, but it’s true. I don’t say it like that because I have low self-esteem or because I hate who I am. I state it like that because it is the most accurate description of how I look. Sure I’m curvy and voluptuous and many other more pleasant sounding words…
There never seems a right way to start a conversation. Whether it is by texting, on the phone, or in person, the beginning is always the hardest. Once started the conversation flows perfectly but at the beginning, nothing. “Hey, how’s it going?” Delete. “Haven’t heard from you in a while.” Delete “Anything new and exciting…
I was the queen of procrastination, once. When a teacher handed out an assignment, I knew exactly how long I could ignore it and still get the grade I desired. In some cases, I chose an acceptable grade rather than the desired grade, but I knew the choice was mine. Every time, I choose to…
I love being alive right now. There are wonderful gadgets and gizmos aplenty. I can literally pull out a small rectangle from my pocket and look up any question and have the almighty Google tell me the answer. It can make life so easy and I love almost anything that makes life easy. But easy isn’t always…
It’s time to bare my soul and my weight. It may be taboo to ask a girl her weight, but I’m offering it up anyway. Being healthy does not always mean being at a specific weight and my ultimate goal is to be healthy. However, I know I’m not healthy at this weight. I hope…
I like to joke that I’m an optimist, masking as a realist, masking as a pessimist, but honestly, I am just a plain old optimistic person. I genuinely believe that no matter the situation it will work out exactly how it should. However, being an optimist does not mean I am always happy. I can,…
“What do you want?” he asks. My heartbeat quickens, and I begin fidgeting with my fingers. I swallow, trying to get moisture back into my mouth. “I don’t know. Is there something you want?” I replied. “That’s not how this works. I asked you first,” he said. Back and forth we go until the conversation…